35 more days

First, i'm compelled to say that i'm sorry. I really did many things which were wrong and completely detestable this week. I'm really sorry God. It's something i tell myself to seek but i do not actively perform. What must I do? Holy Spirit please teach me and guide me.

It's been a week since i've properly sat down calmly to take stock of the great things you've done for me. Let's see.
Thanks for sustaining me through last saturday's duathlon. Couldn't have done it without you Lord; and I am grateful for the unexpected result, really glad that you do pull pleasant surprises here and there. Really thank you for all the friends and teachers who have offered to support me through this study time although I am so unresponsive and inattentive during lessons, even being the blockhead that i am. I'm not that category of person who would have an innate aptitude for studying; my persona does not adhere to the rigorous academic lifestyle. So help me Father. I'm placing my trust in you. It's just 35 more days to go.

Dazed, Overwhelmed, but Joyful

But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.

Matthew 5:43 - 48

I realised today. Showing care to those who hate you, and those whom you do not really like to a degree, really works. People! Pay attention to Jesus! See! It has been tried, tested and proven.

Peaceable

13

How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever?
How long will you hide your face from me?
How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
and every day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?

Look on me and answer, O Lord my God.
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death;
my enemy will say, "I have overcome him,"
and my foes will rejoice when I fall.

But I trust in your unfailing love;
my heart rejoices in your salvation.
I will sing to the Lord,
for he has been good to me.

"Psalm 13 - of King David"

How long, O Lord? Will you forget me?
How long will you hide your face from me?
How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
and every day have sorrow in my heart?

For I am a wretched man, fighting the sin within.
Day by day I struggle.
Day by day I try my best;
To make peace with men,
To serve my friends,
To care for the people around me.

But alas, I am left alone.
My enemies persecute me;
They are without reason.
My friends desert me;
How can they take delight in my shame.

Behind the smile which masks the pain,
the mask which is about to break;
I cry out to you, O Lord.
For nobody understands,
For nobody really cares,
No one but you, O Father.

Forgive me my sins and inequities,
For I have been a judge, and a slanderer.
This I do not refute.
But rescue me from all these,
For I can bear it no longer.
How long will they continue hurting me?

Look on me and answer, O Lord my God.
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death;
my enemy will say, "I have overcome him,"
and my foes will rejoice when I fall.

But I trust in your unfailing love;
my heart rejoices in your salvation.
I will sing to the Lord,
for he has been good to me.

"The Lord hears my Prayer."

Dejected and Rejected